"A THIRST FOR LIFE"
Spring had come early that year and the weather was
already feeling like summer, and it still was only May. But, in many
of the southern states this is just how it goes. This was the day
that Josh made his entrance into the world, and also a period in time which
will be remembered and known as the "Dirty Thirties".
He had been born at home as were many children of
that time, and therefore no real records of date of birth, etc. kept, but
for all intents and purposes Josh made his presence known by letting a
few good cries to emit forth. His life to follow most certainly would
not be an easy one so it was a good thing he was strong and healthy.
Josh would find his life was not one that any young
child should have to bear. But, he would turn a rough beginning into
something anyone would respect when he reached manhood. This also
gave him the internal feeling of being proud of himself, and the know how
of making always the most out of anything negative that may just come his
Born in Tennessee in a small town Josh grew up quickly
his father an alcoholic and his mother not exactly a stay at home kind
of wife or mother, she liked to party. Being spanked often became
a ritual to let Josh know he was being punished for something he hadn't
even yet done. He found solace by running off to his beloved grandma's
home, there at least for awhile he knew he was safe and loved.
Nonetheless, it never lasted to long for he was always
dragged back home yet, to endure more abuse. His father died suddenly
while Josh was still very young, his mother eventually from her wild life
and incapability to handle the parental responsibility was hospitalized
with a breakdown in a nearby institution. Whereas Josh was now sent
to Florida to be raised by his aunts.
For sometime there was a back and forth going on between
Tennessee and Florida as Josh developed a bit of a rebellious attitude
in his young life. Finally, he did something completely wild he went
and joined the air force at the ripe old age of sixteen years, but in the
end his age was found out and he was discharged.
Not one to be deterred after doing odd jobs and having
also a fling at drinking, woman chasing and living on skid row, he cleaned
up his act and his street smarts kicked in. He once again applied
to the air force and enlisted at 17yrs. of age.
He was never slow of mind, in fact he had a natural
instinct of knowing folks he became either involved with, or had a relationship.
This was how it was when he met and married Rose also while very young,
who came originally from Texas.
They stayed together long enough to have three sons
and albeit they did try, being married so young, and having a very broad
spectrum of differences they divorced five years after their marriage,
Josh now being 22yrs. old.
Working in construction on and off and spending a
lot of money drinking, partying and of course the inevitable one night
stands or two or three, but nevertheless most were only physical and no
real commitment entered into them other than he enjoyed women.
Josh got to be a bit cocky of how well he thought
he knew women and for the most part he did, even at such a young age he
had the awareness of what women liked, and how they liked to be treated.
The only thing he never realized then was that in
the grande scheme of things all of us high or low, good or bad, one day
meet our match; someone who is almost a part of you, I guess the proper
term is soul mate. And so far, Josh had never even heard of or thought
of it. He was too busy having fun.
Now still at such a young age, he had so much history
behind him, and now he once again was to begin yet another new chapter
in the pages of his life to date.
It wasn't long before another page was turned when
Josh met and married Claire. She was also divorced so at 23yrs. of
age once again Josh embarked on the sea of matrimony with Claire. Now being
an extended family, and in the years to come they became parents once again.
By now air force days left behind and also living
in so many states he now was settled down, and working selling life insurance.
This was just another one of Josh's forte's and the honey could surely
drip from his sweet lips when talking insurance with the ladies.
He held some almost in the palm of his hand with his
smooth southern charm, and rugged good looks, and mannerly ways.
After all he knew oh so well, this is what women liked; to be treated like
a lady whether they were one or not, was beside the question, all that
mattered was the sale of the policy.
Lord, knows his commissions bespoke how good a salesman
Josh was. It was all money in the bank, food on the table, and the
knowing gift he had only used in one direction, at least for now, but the
day of reckoning was still a long way off for the young boy who came from
the wrong side of the tracks.
Years past and found Josh and Claire still married,
children grown and now out in the world on their own making their own way,
and scattered all over. Claire was the creative one and this was
her love, and her gift; with it she created an income of sorts which proved
at times to be most helpful.
But, circumstance and change as in all things had
taken the romance out of their relationship, and Josh albeit unplanned
found himself involved in a couple of affairs. One of which he became
very deeply involved in, and had planned to leave his marriage which
had become more habitual for both him and Claire than the loving they once
Although this never came to fruition as Josh became
quite ill and had to undergo major surgery. The operations involved
by-pass and angioplasty. So after going through these surgeries his
chasing days seemed to come pretty much to an end. Whereas he began
to start looking after his health more and going to the gym.
Needless to say, Josh and Claire are still together
and a caring is there, there always will be, but gone are the passion and
romantic moments they once shared, now living a routine life filled with
days of enjoyment.
Yet still there is a deep hungry need inside of Josh.
Could this need be possibly the meeting of his true soul mate, his true
match in this lifetime, one can only surmise.
Time will be the only one to answer that need, and
at a higher level too, until then he is a dutiful husband and they make
the most of their days.
As we reach the golden years or autumn of our lives
reality sets in; and the values of what we wanted and really what we need
seem miles apart. So we will wait patiently and quite possibly still
have a rich, fulfilling life with all we need to sustain each and everyone
Josh's knowing now is fully encompassed in all that
he see's and does; and his gift now is being put to full use. He
has never dispelled the hidden need that lies deep within him, or lost
his thirst for life, and that in itself is a wonderful well from which
Written by: Misty
February 07, 2007